Finding You.

Entering a new world, or just a new stage in life, you search for a big something ⎯ yourself. The question is how do you find it? Where do you look? Im currently asking myself these questions and finding wierd answers. There seems to be nowhere to find it and nowhere to look for it. Finding yourself seems to be like trying on clothes. Another outfit is another character. The bad boy look. The nice guy. The smooth and chill boy. The smart guy. The artistic one. I find myself taking things from all these characters and creating a new character. Im creating someone that has many different qualities, talents, and flaws. Someone that im proud of and my family is proud of. Im creating a prototype ⎯ kamau.

that little moment!

You know when you meet a new person and you both have that cool connection from the start? Then you both seem to be getting closer and closer as friends, and it's beginning to seem like a friendship that's gonna last awhile. It appears to good, in a way. It's\ so good that you begin to search for "that little moment". You know? the little thing they say or do that lets you know the friendship wont go to far. You seem to wish and hope it never comes because the chemistry seems to be great and you see the partnership going a long way. This MAY BE IT !!!, you think, THIS MAY BE THE "BEST FRIEND" . then before you know it they show a little sign that lets you know this isn't the one. It tends to happen so fast and once they do whatever it is that sends you "over" you feel a dropping sensation. A feeling of disappointment. Another name off the friend list and into the associate pale.